我的‘小’地盘

NEW YEAR NEW BEGIN..

2010-01-03T22:03:00.002+08:00

now only update my blog..
it is 3rd of January, 2010..
think of a lot of things to write..
but when i come here and wanna write out it..
all idea gone..
whats wrong with me??!!
is it because of too long time dint read or study??!!
LOL..
no comment..
=.=""

well..
just talk about Christmas..
most of them ask me..
where you go for Countdown..
NO..
i dint go anywhere..
and i just stay at home..
XD
about the New Year..
the same place i Countdown..
my home again..
dont feell weird about it..
i use to do that..
COUNTDOWN AT HOME..

for a new year, 2010..
a new begin for me..
leave the school..
and have my new life..
is it a new life??!!
or still the ordinary life just like usual..
never have changes..

气啊!!!!

2009-12-29T22:31:00.003+08:00

死人臭鸡婆!!!
你到底什么事情啊??!!!
我好像没有得罪到你啊!!
为什么你的嘴巴就不能收敛一下呢??
吃到那么老了..
一点口德也没有..
干脆不要做人好了啦!!!
东西可以乱吃..
可是话不要乱讲!!!
这样子的道理你还不懂吗??
拜托一下..
说话别这么难听好不好..
什么我妈妈生多了一个儿子???
顶你的啊!!
没有看过踢比是不是??
算了吧..
你这样子的乡下人..
满脚牛屎的女人..
还是没有见识过的..
我原谅你的无知..
可是..
请别这样说话来中伤我!!
因为你这种无知妇孺的话..
把我搞得很惨!!!
一点衣着自由也没了!!!
我恨你!!!
恨你恨你恨你啊!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Speechless..

2009-12-20T09:02:00.003+08:00

what im going to write here?
no idea..
just wanna crap here..
what mood am i having right now..
i cant even describe it..
complicated!!

i miss you i miss you..
i miss you badly..
hope can hug you right now..
hug you tightly..
but you are not around..
it is only a dream..
i can only hug you in my dream..
wake up from dream..
and i still alone..

thought having my freedom after those tough time..
but NO..
NO such thing..
having a regular schedule everyday..
wake up => work => rest => work => sleep
godness..
any entertain for me?!!
should i plan something for myself that could make me feel free and happy?
without parents' control..
ARGH!!!
dont like to have parental control..
i just wanna be myself!!!!

just hope that i can relax myself..
dont stress dont stress..
that will only make me down..
but
can i??!!
*confuse*

FREEDOM

2009-12-11T10:32:00.005+08:00

FINALLY...
FINALLY...
FINALLY......
finally i have finished my STPM!!!
wow~~~
what a tough time to past..
but lastly..
i have past it..
and now..
i got my freedom that i dream for long time ago!!!
wee~~~~

well..
there are few plans after my exam..
firstly..
i will go to GENTING HIGHLAND..
yahoo...
so i will not be around for 2 days..
12th and 13th December..

secondly..
i will go for a swim on 15th December..
anyone wanna join??!!
wakaka..
the place still not decide yet..
either Ipoh Tambun or Sungkai TRAP..

thirdly..
the plan that have been cancelled..
aikzzz..
a bit sad about it..
plan to go to Malacca..
but due to that stupid YOGURT aka SUSU BASI cant go..
it becomes a visionally plan.. T.T

fourthly..
there is a camp at Klang on 19th and 20th December..
still thinking wanna go or not..
huhu..
but i miss the Langkawi camp that held on 10th to 14th December..
Taekwondo leadership and fitness camp..
miss Taekwondo a lot.. XD

fifthly..
who can suggest any place to go during Christmas or countdown for New Year??!!
it could be my fifth plan..
XD

it is so free when free of exam..
and free of study..
but the life still go on..
am I wasting my time now for doing something meaningless??
wakaka..
but i feel happy and relax to do so..
=D

无题11

2009-12-07T19:52:00.000+08:00

爱
不是付出
就一定有收获
爱
不是承诺
而是一种表现
爱
或许甜蜜
或许也会痛苦
爱
没有它真正的定义
它的定义
在于每个人的想法

有多少人
因为爱
而伤透了心
也有些人
因为爱
而找到幸福

每件事情
都只有一个结局
而爱情
也不例外
分开或一起
痛苦或幸福
没人能懂
怎样的结局
操控在自己的手里
而不是命运而主宰
所有的事情
都该自己努力争取
包括自己的幸福....

STPM!!!!!

2009-11-23T01:34:00.007+08:00

18 November 2009 Rabu
8:00 pg – 11:00pg Bahasa Cina 1
8:00 pg – 11:00pg Bahasa Tamil 1
8:00 pg – 11:00pg Syariah 1 (Fikah dan Usul Fikah)
2:00ptg – 4:30ptg Computing 1
2:00ptg – 4:00ptg SeniVisual 4 (Teori Penghasilan Karya)

19 November 2009 Khamis
8:00 pg – 11:00pg Bahasa Arab 1
8:00 pg – 9:00pg Physics 4 (Written Prectical Test)
8:00 pg – 11:00pg Sains Sukan 1
2:00ptg – 5:00ptg Perakaunan 1
2:00ptg – 4:00ptg Biology 2 (Structure and Essay)

23 November 2009 Isnin
~~8:00 pg – 11:00pg Pengajian Am 2 (Esei)~~
2:00ptg – 5:00ptg Bahasa Cina 2
2:00ptg – 5:00ptg Bahasa Tamil 2
2:00ptg – 5:00ptg Syariah 2 (Ayat Ahkam dan Hadis Ahkam)

24 November 2009 Selasa
8:00 pg – 11:00pg Kesusasteraan Melayu 1 (Kesusasteraan Melayu Tradisional)
8:00 pg – 10:30pg Chemistry 2 (Structure and Essay)
~~2:00ptg – 5:00ptg Sejarah 1 (Tamadun Dunia hingga tahun 1800)~~

25 November 2009 Rabu
8:00 pg – 11:00pg Bahasa Arab 2
8:00 pg – 11:00pg Mathematics S 1
8:00 pg – 11:00pg Mathematics T 1
2:00ptg – 5:00ptg Literature in English1 (Shakespeare and Other British Writers)
2:00ptg – 5:00ptg Usuluddin1 (Tauhid dan Mantik)

26 November 2009 Khamis
~~8:00 pg – 11:00pg Bahasa Malaysia 2 (Esei)~~
2:00ptg – 5:00ptg Pengajian Perniagaan 1
2:00ptg – 5:00ptg Further Mathematics T 1

30 November 2009 Isnin
~~8:00 pg – 11:00pg Sejarah 2 (Sejarah Malaysia, Asia Tenggara, Asia Selatan dan Asia Timur, 1800-1963)~~
8:00 pg – 10:30pg Physics 2 (Structure and Essay)
~~2:00ptg – 5:00ptg Ekonomi 1 (Mikroekonomi)~~

1 Disember 2009 Selasa
8:00 pg – 11:00pg Geografi 1 (Alam Sekitar Fizikal)
2:00ptg – 5:00ptg Mathematics S 1
2:00ptg – 5:00ptg Mathematics T 1

2 Disember 2009 Rabu
8:00 pg – 9:00pg Biology 4 (Written Practical Test)
8:00 pg – 11:00pg Seni Visual 2 (Lukisan)
~~2:00ptg – 5:00ptg Ekonomi 2 (Makroekonomi)~~

3 Disember 2009 Khamis
8:00 pg – 11:00pg Pengajian Perniagaan 2
2:00ptg – 5:00ptg Geografi 2 (Alam Sekitar Manusia)
2:00ptg – 5:00ptg Further Mathematics T 2

7 Disember 2009 Isnin
8:00 pg – 11:00pg Usuluddin 2 (Ulum Al-Quran dan Ulum Al-Hadis)
8:00 pg – 11:00pg Perakaunan 2
2:00ptg – 5:00ptg Kesusasteraan Melayu 2 (Kesusasteraan Melayu Moden)
2:00ptg – 3:45ptg Biology 1 (Multiple-choice)

8 Disember 2009 Selasa
8:00 pg – 11:00pg Literature in English 2 (New Literatures in English)
8:00 pg – 10:30pg Computing 2
2:00ptg – 3:00ptg Chemistry 4 (Written Prectical Test)
2:00ptg – 5:00ptg Seni Visual 1 (Teori Seni Visual)

9 Disember 2009 Rabu
8:00 pg – 9:45pg Physics 1 (Multiple-choice)
8:00 pg – 11:00pg Sains Sukan 2
~~2:00ptg – 4:00ptg Pengajian Am 1 (Aneka Pilihan)~~

10 Disember 2009 Khamis
8:00 pg – 9:45pg Chemistry 1 (Multiple-choice)
~~2:00ptg – 4:00ptg Bahasa Malaysia 1 (Aneka Pilihan)~~

ps:-
to all my beloved friends..
good luck in your exam..
and fight together for our future..
AZA AZA FIGHTING!!!

APPEARANCE is NOT IMPORTANT

2009-11-22T00:55:00.001+08:00

APPEARANCE of oneself is not the most important thing in one's life..
it is just a physical look..
and it will change from time to time..
we do not have a choice on how pretty or ugly we will be perceived as..
but..
some of the people spend a lot of time trying to look pretty..
YA..
a good physical appearance can attract a lot of people..
a people may become popular due to his/her good appearance..
well-known and well-liked..
but..
is it important??!!!
many people say that..
appearance is important when we go for interview..
i agree with this because it is important to leave a good impression for the interviewer..
but..
good personality must come together with good appearance..
is it possible to have good appearance with good personality??
>.<""

i dont have a good appearance..
but i do appreciate with what i have now..
at least..
im not handicapped..
i still have the ability to do my own things..
being good-looking doesnt necessarily mean that oneself has a good heart right??
The Bible says that
"People look at the outward appearance but God looks at the heart"
so..
the most important thing is not the appearance..
but is a good heart..

ps:-
SPECIAL FOR BUI and TRACY:-
dont judge a book by its cover..
the first impressions are not always enough to judge other people

EXTREMELY DEPRESSED..

2009-11-16T13:13:00.003+08:00

DEPRESSED DEPRESSED DEPRESSED
stop it!!!
please...
dont force me anymore..
i havent finish my exam..
please..
PLEASE...
dont force me..
i already face a lot of stress..
i NEED time to settle it..

you all always decided for me..
WHY you all like to do like this??
do you all think about my feeling??
how i feel??
do you all know??
SUFFER SUFFER and SUFFER!!
you all never think about me..
everything you all decided..
i MUST do it..
it is a MUST!!!
i HATE it!!!!!!!!!!!!!
do you know??
i really HATE!!!!

going to England??
should i go??
just follow what you all planned for me??
can i make my own decision??
to stay here??
i really dont wanna go so far..
far away from home..
far away from YOU..
i miss YOU..
i do miss YOU..
miss YOU badly~~~

STAY AWAKE!!!

2009-11-12T10:06:00.008+08:00

STPM is coming nearer and nearer..
SCARE about it..
am i really give up about it..
and just be dispirit like this..
YAYA!!!
really DISPIRIT!!!

LIM SOOK MUN!!!
wake up!!!
for you..
STPM is the MOST IMPORTANT thing for you right now!!!
concentrate on it!!!
and not others..
get it??!!
you get it???
continue your journey...
3 more weeks..
bear for 3 more weeks..
you will get your freedom..
you can do anything you want!!!

NO MORE outing..
NO MORE sleeping..
NO MORE facebook-ing..
just STUDY STUDY and STUDY..
NEVER GIVE UP!!!
but i know that..
i cant stop to go outing..
i cant control myself so that not to fall asleep..
and i cant even miss any single moment to stay on my Facebook..
WHAT TO DO??
but im NOT ADDICTED to Facebook..

well..
nothing much i can write over here..
everything can be overcome..
just need some time..
dont let other stuff affected myself!!!
BE TOUGH~~~

*while i was moody..
i saw it..
and it made me feel comfortable..
i would like to share it over here..

永不放弃..【Never GIVE UP!!】

2009-11-08T13:04:00.003+08:00

想一想..
好像很久没用华语来写部落格了..
今天心血来潮..
有点灵感..
就写下了这篇文章..
想起之前去过的一个成长营..
里头真的让我学会了不少东西..
在那里..
曾经看过一个这样的短片..
跟大家分享一下哦..

看了这个短片..
大家心里..
想着什么呢??
每个人都有他自己的潜能..
只是自己没发觉到..
相信自己..
坚持一定能达到目的..
当然..
也要有个能够激励你的人..
在你身边支持者你..
让你有更大你力量!!!

在此..
我想告诉我的朋友们..
要相信自己..
要坚持..
锁定一个目标..
往那个目标出发..
发挥自己的潜能..
途中虽然会遇上困难..
可是..
千万别放弃!!!
如果放弃..
就注定你们一辈子都失败..
勇敢地走下去吧..
你们一定会走到目的地的..
还有我会给予你们支持..
直到你们达到目标..
大家为自己的理想而加油吧!!!!!

SEI in MUET~~

2009-11-07T20:15:00.003+08:00

well..
today i have my MUET exam at my school..
this is the second time for me to take this exam..
*paiseh*
because not satisfied with my previous result..
[i just got a BAND3 in the previous exam]
it is not the result i want..
i target at least must get a BAND4!!!

actually..
i didnt prepare for it..
dont ask me why..
just because im LAZY!!!
no other reason...
XD
the day before i exam..
i on9 till about 1am..
and chatting with FIONA and my lovely MUI..
miss you a lot...
as we really long time didnt see each other..
*sob sob*
when we can meet each other??!!
>.<*

the exam started with the reading comprehension..
the duration to answer that paper is 1 hour and 30 minutes..
on the half way i answering the questions..
i started to feel sleepy..
[because sleep too late.. XD]
i finished answering the questions in about 1 hour..
YEAH!!
still got another 30 minutes..
so i just took a nap..
feel so GOOD!!
hehe~~~
after the paper ended..
i was beat by that stupid YOGURT!!
not necessary to beat me what..
i just slept in the exam..
and didnt do anything wrong..
=.=""
I HATE YOU!!!
XD

for the coming paper..
writing and listening..
i even dont have 1 minute to rest..
especially in the listening paper..
huh~~~~
must pay all the attention in it..
if not sure cant answer the question..

seriously..
the exam for this time is EASIER than previous want..
really NOT FAIR!!!
compare to this exam..
the previous exam was SUPER DUPER HARD!!!
but hopefully..
can get a better BAND in this time..

*p/s:-
CONGRATES to FIONA WONG because being grandma for the SECOND TIME..
you are getting older adi..
XD

for my mui..
as a lot of incidents happened in UTAR..
you must take good care of yourself ya..^^

TENSION make me CRY..

2009-11-04T23:33:00.006+08:00

STUDY STUDY STUDY~~~
beside study..
i dont think i have other things to do..
as STPM is nearer and nearer..
ARGH!!!
FORCE myself to study..
im lost..
im moody..
im tension..
i really dont know what to do..
FEELING DEAD!!!

while i was doing my makroekonomi..
i didnt know how to answer the question..
TENSION TENSION and TENSION!!!
god!!!
i need to solve it..
i must solve it!!!
IT IS A MUST!!!
i told myself..
i keep thinking how to solve it..
but i FAILED!!!
USELESS!!!
by the time..
my tears dropped..
started to cry~~~~
dont know why..
why i cried??
*sigh*

since i couldnt solve it..
i took out my hand phone..
started snap photo..
YA!!!
i love the most..
snap and snap and snap...
lastly..
i felt better..
and continued my makroekonomi..

thanks a lot to kah meii because gave me a hand while i really lost..
hehe..
taught me how to solve the problem..
thanks again..

*here are some of the photos i took...^^

FREAKING UNLUCKY!!!

2009-11-02T15:08:00.003+08:00

whats going wrong today??
really really not my day!!!
well..
after finished school..
get into my car and wanna go for my lunch with my brother..
since that time i was reversed my car..
and my brother was talking with me..
i didnt notice that..
there was a motorcycle behind us..
OMG!!!
crashed on the stupid motorcycle..
get down from the car and see whats going on..
aikzz..
its my fault that didnt see clearly and crashed on it..
need to pay for it after the motorcyclist send his motorcycle to repair..
damn moody with it..
but still need to face the truth..
what to do?!

going slimmer and slimmer??

2009-10-31T00:38:00.001+08:00

i admitted that i was quite chubby..
last time..
but recently..
everyone is saying me that im getting slimmer n slimmer..
SWEAT =.=
is that true??
LOL..
i dont think so..
anyway..
maybe they didnt see me for so long..
so they think i become slimmer and slimmer..
and become GOOD-LOOKING..
this is the main point for me..
[just kidding]
wakaka XD

i wanna clarify about this..
im NOT purposely cut down my weight..
YA..NOT PURPOSELY!!!
but how come my weight will lose??
dont ask me..
i also dont know whats going on...
but Fiona said that..
YOU always didnt eat..
thats why YOU will lose weight..
[YOU=ME]
she REPEATED many times..
wakaka..
hmm~~~
i just didnt eat my meal when im moody or dont have appetite..
hehe XP

*p/s:
recently..
i can eat well and sleep well..
my mood is getting better since you all always by my side..

complicated...

2009-10-30T15:08:00.006+08:00

sometimes
i really dont understand what im thinking about..
when im thinking about LOVE stuff
i freaking moody..
i try to do my best..
but i will never be the best..
i never know what you all need..
YA!!
thats right..
i never understand..
NEVER NEVER NEVER..
im such a idiot that NEVER understand what they need..
FAILURE..

i keep asking myself..
what im doing right now??
is all those things right??
or
im doing the wrong things??
COMPLICATED..
i lost myself..
i cant find my way...
i lost..
TOTALLY LOST!!!
i need to find a way out..
GOD~~
help me..
please give me a hand..

i cant let myself lost..
i still have other things that havent be done..
i should forget all the things..
i have try hard but i failed..
its not easy to be forgotten..
i know that..
everything is just keep in my mind..
im tired..
and im suffering from those stress n tiredness..
when can i let off all the things??

this is the song which i think can express my feeling..
*sigh*
just pretend to be happy~~~
nobody will know about the sadness inside my heart..

BORED~~

2009-10-28T21:00:00.002+08:00

huh~~
what a super duper boring life i havent been before..
everyday in class..
i seem like a dead body..
or known as ZOMBIE~~
wakaka..
halloween is coming..
but it doesnt celebrate in our country..
>.<

freaking boring my god!!!
everyday just sitting in the class..
and im the only chinese in the class..
whereas the others are malay..
what to do..
just mix with them and chat a bit..
1 MALAYSIA what..
wakaka XD
but please dont misunderstood..
im NOT a malay..
im a PURE chinese..
CHINESE ok???

p/s-
pity to my beloved brother..
hand phone was snatched by prefects even though he is also a prefect..
not only him but still have another 2 friends..
they tried to get it back but the MR HO (our principal) didnt give them back their hand phones..
LOL..
need to wait for 2 weeks..
*sigh*
trying not to bring hand phone on coming days~~~ XD

stress??

2009-10-27T19:42:00.002+08:00

going to exam soon..
but i havent well-prepared for it..
dont know what to do..
GOD!!!
help me please~~~
*sob sob*

i really stress..
too much incidents happened this few weeks and made me depress..
besides that..
im going to be mad with all these problem..
how to settle it??
it takes time..
and i really feel helpless..
i cant even sleep at night..
and cant even eat every single meal..
aikzzz..
who can help me???

a lot of friends have advice me..
tam me...
*touching*
thanks a lot all my dear dear friends..
wakaka..
even though i still not in good condition..
especially when im alone..

i tried to concentrate on my study..
but i cant..
i keep thinking of my own problems..
it drives me mad!!!!
argh~~~
how can i let off all of these troubles..
it's hard!!!
stress..
make me stress..........
@.@

tell me what is LOVE~~

2009-10-16T11:42:00.005+08:00

im back..
back to my blog..
but..
no idea what to write..
aikzz..

well..
LOVE is a complicated stuff..
make people happy..
and make people sad..
but still have people fall in love..
WHY??!!
i ask myself..
but no answer..

we get hurt because of LOVE..
we need time to recover..
but..
can we forget it??
NO..
NEVER..
there is a scar..
and will feel pain..
as you think back your past..
even we get hurt..
but we still wanna LOVE..
STUBBORN??
or our life will dull WITHOUT love??

*actually.. i dont know what im talking about...
concentrate on my study because STPM is coming around the corner..
haiz~~~

Tired~~

2009-09-28T22:55:00.002+08:00

For how long i didnt update my blog..
For how long i didnt on9 and chat with my friends..
For how long.........
Huh~~~
Finally...finish my trial exam..
TOUGH+TIRED+TENSION
aka 3T
Wakaka..
With a tired body..
Without a soul...
Feeling dead...
How can i live in such sucking life??!!!
ISH!!!
I hate this...
Still have 6 more weeks..
STPM is coming..
Still dont have confident..
Haiz..
4flat??!!
I know it's not easy but im trying..
Trying to do my best..
Last chance for me to prove that im not a useless people!!!
Well....
For people who look down at me..
Try to change your mind..
Im not such useless as you think that im..
YOU ARE WRONG!!!
I will prove that...
No matter how tired..
How tough..
Or even how tension..
I will do my best..
YOU BETTER WATCH OUT!!!
Wakaka... XD

eternal love

2009-09-20T15:49:00.005+08:00

my dear..
i know the distance between us is quite far..
and we do not have chance to meet each other always..
even though we always argue..
just because of small matter..
but the relationship between us still good..
every couple will have quarrel..
and as long as they love each other..
a quarrel will make them more understand each other..
same case with us..
well..
i know that i cant do everything for you..
but i will love you with all my heart..
as long as i still alive..
this is a promise..

yesterday night..
before you sleep..
you said that your ex call you again..
but you didnt pick up the phone..
you scare..
she message you..
and you didnt reply..
because you fell asleep..
i realized that..
i am scare too..
i scare i will lose you..
whole night..
i cant sleep..
i scare she will disturb you..
i worry about you..

dear..
i know that you wont leave me..
because you love me..
the love between us..
still strong..
hope that it will last..
FOREVER..
*forever is never over!!!

Dont judge me from the way I treat YOU!!

2009-09-10T16:34:00.004+08:00

well..
im really angry with all these..
if you really not satisfied with the way i treat you..
then you straight away come and talk to me..
im not a people that simply can let you scold or comment..
IM NOT!!!
and dont even message to my friend..
im COOL!!
yes..
thats right..
im a cool people..
as you dont even come to talk to me..
then just keep your mouth shut..
i wouldnt simply go and talk to you..
and i have my own right not to tell you anything about me..
and please dont force me to do anything that i dont like to do..
once you force me..
i will feel antipathy to you..
thats me..
and dont say that i only treat you cool..
i treat other people just in the same way!!!
not only you!!!
so..
please dont judge me..
from the way i treat you..
if people dont come to talk with me..
i seldom will talk with them..
thats me..
SMALL MOUTH!!!
just being myself...

09-09-09 [幸福的一天]

2009-09-09T20:09:00.004+08:00

09-09-09的今天..
每一百年才有的那么一天..
实在是珍贵..
也谢谢贝贝来陪我..
让我开心了一天..
有贝贝陪伴的时间..
总是很快就过去..

我和贝贝..
总是形影不离..
因为我爱贴着贝贝..
贝贝也贴着我..
就算在车里..
也喜欢握住对方的手..
^^

在和贝贝用了早餐之后..
就去兜风了..
过后才回家一下下..
才出门去看电影[final destination 4]
哇佬..
很不错一下..
有够恐怖+恶心
全部都死完..
哈哈哈..
[坏心肠的我]
贝贝也说我很坏哦
看戏期间..
吓到了..
贝贝的妈咪信息来要载贝贝放学..
啊!!
我的天啊..
还好聪明的贝贝找借口推掉了..
我们的计划..
也没被他揭穿..
哈哈哈..

看完戏戏..
也是时候载贝贝回家了..
途中..
贝贝已经睡了..
睡得很熟很甜..
很可爱..^^
而我们的手..
也一直握住..
不曾放开..
直到半路..
贝贝醒了..
也开始跟我聊天啦啦啦..
wee~~~

因为我肚子饿饿..
所以贝贝带我去吃mcd噜..
可是胃胃很不听话..
竟然胃痛起来..
啊!!
真的有够痛啊..
飙汗~~~~
我的mc chicken..
也吃不下了..

上到车..
贝贝就找药药给我..
因为我的胃药都放在车里..
吃了药..
还是痛..
真的忍受不了..
T.T

由贝贝带路回家..
因为我不熟那里的路..
嘻嘻..
到家时..
贝贝给了我小熊饼!!!
我最爱的小熊饼!!
哈哈哈..
好开心哦..
可是..
有点不舍得吃哦..
贝贝送我的小熊饼叻..
哈哈..
一支糖果..
还有..
我们一人一个的moo moo 水瓶..
一本作者为‘橘子’的小说..
都是我喜欢的..
谢谢贝贝...
么么..
虽然分离时..
有些不舍..
可是..
真心相爱的话..
再远的距离..
心也是最近的..
是吗???

moo moo 水瓶

糖果+小熊饼

ps:-
今天..
终于把戒指戴在贝贝手上了..
贝贝也送了我牌子吊饰..
上面刻着的..
永远都是我们的承诺..^^

是不是我的错??

2009-09-08T12:45:00.003+08:00

是不是一切
都因我而起
是不是一切
都是我的错

我不懂你想着什么..
我不懂你要些什么..
我就是这样
什么都不懂
什么都不会
并不是我什么都不想做
只是我不明白你想我怎样
我无能为力
每次都是因为我不懂
搞到大家都很不开心
其实
我很想知道
我不懂的
到底是什么
我猜不透

我并没有想过要放弃..
因为我不想放弃..
可以教我怎么做你才满意吗??

永远的失败者

2009-09-02T20:30:00.003+08:00

最近..
累得让我透不过气..
压力逼着来..
我可以做些什么??
一个人撑得就快垮了..
身体也不太好..
很难受..
贝贝..
多希望你会在..

最近都贝贝跟比比好像有点不妥..
是比比让贝贝累了吗??
是比比让贝贝辛苦了吗??
我们之间是怎样了??
冷了淡了陌生了??
是这样吗??
比不想..
真的不想就这样..
或许比就不适合当一个情人..
比就是那么的失败..
永远不会懂贝贝要的是什么..

学习坚强..
原来也是没用..
晚上一个人哭..
因为噩梦而哭了..
心里很怕..
真的怕【她】会把贝抢走..
我的心..
就快承受不住了..
好几次都会突然停止跳动..
或者跳的很快..
很痛很难受..
救命~~~~

p/s:-
世上还有永恒的爱吗??
难道爱一个人就是那么难??
爱上了就不能自拔..
你已成了我的选择..
而我还是一样的会好好爱着你..
永远不变..
决不放弃你..

我们的爱情..抵过一切

2009-08-30T22:10:00.002+08:00

今天的凌晨..
有点累了..
可是老婆说有点事情要告诉我..
怎样都能撑得到..
老婆突然质疑我了..
或许老婆是不想再受到伤害..
可是我说的..
我对贝的爱..
是真的..
不是出于同情..
不是出于可怜..
而是出于我对贝的一片真心..

原来..
是[她]找贝了..
还告诉了贝一切以前贝想知道的答案..
她还放不下贝..
可是想挽回时..
已经太迟了..
分开了一年多..
可是每当想起贝..
还是会流泪..

虽然我懂贝不会再回到她的身边..
可是难免会吃点干醋..
因为我真的很在乎贝..
贝贝..
比比答应你的一切..
都会做到..
比比知道..
贝贝要的是比比的真心..
比比有做到..
贝贝跟比比说的一切..
都让比比很感动..
比比怎样都无所谓..
只想让贝贝开开心心..
比比已经学习坚强了..
不让贝贝太担心比比..
比比学习成长..
要做贝贝的依靠..
贝贝..
比比会永远在你身边陪着你的..
我们的承诺..
依旧还在..^^

一周年纪念日..

2009-08-29T00:43:00.001+08:00

凌晨12点..
刚踏入2009年8月29日..
我们的一周年纪念日..
在这之前..
我们却为了点事情..
吵翻了..
虽然如此..
但在那一刻..
我却真的很想亲口对你说声..
一周年纪念日快乐...
比比爱你..
是比比不懂事..
一直气贝贝..
只期望得到你的原谅..
比比的真心..
你应该明白..
比比是全心全意地爱着你..
比比不懂得什么甜言蜜语..
也不懂得怎样才能让你开心..
可是..
比比的真心能够抵过一切..
对吗??
贝贝..
比比懂你要的不只是一年..
而是更久更久..
比比答应你..
一定很久..
比永久更久..
相信比比..
比比会给贝贝简单开心的生活..
一起..
无辈子的一起..
贝贝..比比爱你..

检讨...

2009-08-27T01:22:00.003+08:00

现在的我可以做些什么??
难过..
自卑..
自信也没了..
或许小嘴巴已经不在了..
迷失自我..
当初那个幽默的小嘴巴..
多话的小嘴巴..
去了哪里??

学习说话的技巧..
这是一门学问吧..
该说的才说..
不该说的不要说..
该问的时候问..
别在过后才来问..

小嘴巴..
好好学习了..

ps:-
说了可是却做不到..
就是没用鬼..
小嘴巴加油加油加油!!!
别让老婆辛苦了..

妹子..
哥哥懂你为了哥哥好..
可是你也懂哥哥如何也不会放弃她的..
爱情就是这样..
你也应该懂哦..
大家一起为自己所爱加油吧!!^^

Thx to yuki hengdai XD
accompany me again~~~
even u r moody..
i cant help u...
haiz...
cheer up!!!
Fighting together~~~
XD

我错了

2009-08-26T22:32:00.005+08:00

今天..
七夕情人节..
可是却跟你吵了架..
对不起..
或许是我错了..
一直让你辛苦..
我..
只会说..
却不会做..
不会去想..
你说的很对..
今天还跟你吵了一场打架..
我的举止..
都让你难受了..
我有试着去让你开心..
可是我很失败..
越来越觉得我自己真的很没用..
说要让你开心..
也只是用嘴巴说说而已..
做却没有做到..
对不起..
对不起老婆..

其实我也很想跟老婆分担..
我不能在老婆身边..
想逗老婆笑..
扮扮鬼脸..
都做不到..
觉得我自己没用..
不能让你开心..
对不起

ps:-
老婆..情人节快乐..
真心对你说的..

一个人哭着..
也是睡不着的吧..
哭累了就睡......

考试..

2009-08-25T14:37:00.004+08:00

预考就要到了..
书还没读..
一点都还没读..
要等死了!!!
为什么天总是那么的不公??
我考试..
就不能给点时间我去准备吗??
你这个番薯!!
整天不回家!!
自己考试就可以一整天躲在房间..
不用帮忙..
你的考试只不过是学校小小的测验!!
不算的上重要!!
现在多少岁了??
轻重都不分!!
我考的成绩差..
就一天骂到晚..
现在是我不读书吗??
是你们不给机会我..
不给时间我..
要我怎样读??!!!
我其实也很压力..
你们不知道..
别老是看我不在乎的样子..
其实我也想考好来..
求你们给我点时间..
我也需要考好我的试..

ps:-
老婆..我知道你一直都在支持我..
谢谢你..
其实我也很想尽力..
可是..
家里没有给机会我..
对不起..

假期的第一天~~~

2009-08-22T20:40:00.003+08:00

今天一早..
就驾着车子回安顺了..
因为今天学校有function..
华文学会的联欢会..
打扮到帅帅..
哈哈..
应该还好吧..
太过自恋了..[羞羞]
结果..
竟然没想象中的多人..[比起去年]

其实..
一个人有点闷闷的..
可能再加上心情也不太好..
所以也没什么说话的..
不像我??
哈哈..
有点..
可是..
还会在那里大喊大叫..
发泄的一种..

唉~~~
是一种怎样的心情呢??
考试快到了..
啊!!!
辛苦~~~~

家里拍的..^^

steak factory..with chow hui...

学校厕所..臭臭.. >.<*

生病了~~~

2009-08-18T22:44:00.004+08:00

生病了~~~
病的好严重??
不算吧..
我自己也不清楚..
发烧..
头痛..
呼吸困难..
很辛苦啊!!!
对不起老婆..
让老婆担心了..
要赶快好起来..
我不能再让老婆担心了..
神啊~~
让我赶紧好起来了..
唉~~~
可是..
老婆的电话坏了..
要拿去修理哦..
也不懂要修理几久..
老婆不能陪着我了..
T.T
等等等..
老公会耐心等老婆的..
想老婆~~~
在这段期间..
比比会定时吃药..
定时用餐..
照顾好自己..
让自己好起来的..
当老婆回来时..
会是一个健康的小嘴巴..^^

ps:- 发现自己原来不能没有你..
没有你的陪伴..
生命里就好像缺乏了什么..
好想好想你...

难过

2009-08-16T21:45:00.002+08:00

对我来说..
今天真的是很难过的一天..
非常难过..
难过得我再也受不了..
快要崩溃了..
为什么会变成这样??
不是一个家吗??
为什么要这样乱??
难道..
所有都是我的错吗??
我就不该存在..
我真的心力交瘁了..

还好有你..
在我最需要你的时候..
你都在我身边..
安慰我..
哄着我..
因为你..
我才有好心情..
因为你..
我才可以撑下去..
老婆..
真的谢谢你..
今天一直陪伴着我..
在我最需要你的时候..

ps:- 老婆的佳作..
谢谢老婆..
看着这些照照..
心也开心得多了..
谢谢老婆~~~

助人为快乐之本~~

2009-08-14T14:12:00.002+08:00

哈哈..
助人为快乐之本??!!
是真的吗??
今天放学过后..
就跟朋友去吃东西啦..
炒果条~~
哈哈..
还叫了拉拉煎叻!!
我最爱吃了..
可是吃太多会热气..
而且天气也蛮热的..
吃到浑身是汗..
衣服也湿了..
不是夸张的哦..
就在吃完准备付钱时..
竟然有人晕在路中间..
这时..
当然把她抬去荫凉的地方..
很重!!!
她还是在晕晕状态..
扶她坐上椅子..
以为她没事了...
老板看到了..
就去找她的妈妈..
(认识的)
她那没良心的妈妈..
竟然说没人看店..
把她放在老板那里..
过分!!!
哪里有这样的妈妈啊??
可以不管自己的女儿..
没多久才来了..
要带她女儿走..
可是..
抬不动咯..
真的是太重了..
我朋友就做好人..
用她的车子送她回去..
当然..
还要把那女的搬上车..
很重啊!!
很难才把她抬进车子里..
到了她妈妈的店...
又要把她抬下去..
不整身汗就假了..
回家真的要消毒了..
那女的..
都不知有什么病..
唉..
算了吧..
就当做了一件善事咯..
^^

不完美..

2009-08-13T22:59:00.003+08:00

我..
原来一直都是那么不中用..
无法做到你心中那么完美..
或许..
我就是那么的不中用吧..
你所说过的..
我说要改的..
可是就是没一样做到..
转个头..
所有东西都忘了..
没用的家伙!!!
一直以来..
都是你忍着我这个笨瓜..
是你让我..
辛苦了~~~
我一直都没想过你的辛苦..
忽略你的感受..
是我不好..
对不起..
可是..
你不要丢下我一个人..
不想...

*哭了.....最近的压力很大
就哭着入睡吧

坏心情~~

2009-08-11T20:31:00.002+08:00

今天老婆的心情很不好..
而我却帮不了什么..
没用的小嘴巴!!
安慰的话不会说..
不能让老婆心情平静下来..
差劲!!!
不能在老婆身边跟老婆分担..
已经有点难过了..
就连安抚她也不会..
实在太不像话了!!
老婆的家人也没一个是好人..
时常只欺负她她一个..
她身边的朋友也一样..
只会带给他麻烦..
你们可以让她静一静吗??!!
她也只不过是一个小女生..
为什么就要这样逼她呢??
她有感觉的..
她会有压力的..
想一想她好吗??!!
她已经很辛苦了..
别再逼她!!!

心疼+生气~~

2009-08-09T21:44:00.003+08:00

为你心疼了~~
对不起..
不能为你做什么..
在你最痛的时候..
我竟然在睡觉..
我真的很没用..
你跌倒了..
还弄到脸，腰和脚..
拜老婆的<好>弟弟所赐!!!
发什么脾气..
泼什么水!!
岂有此理..
结果害我老婆跌伤了..
脸也肿了!!
还好没有毁容!!
不然他怎样赔回一个老婆给我!!
他赔不起!!
男生没有一个好!!
全是臭人坏人衰人!!!
讨厌!!!

徐佳莹-失落沙洲

2009-08-09T17:32:00.002+08:00

徐佳莹-失落沙洲

词曲:徐佳莹

又来到这个港口
没有原因的拘留
我的心乘着斑剥的轻舟
寻找失落的沙洲

随时间的海浪漂流
我用力张开双手
拥抱那么多起起落落
想念的还是你望着我的眼波

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
回头才发现你不在
留下我迂回的徘徊
我不是一定要你回来
只是当又把回忆翻开
除了你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱

又回到这个尽头我也想再往前走
只是越看见海阔天空
越遗憾没有你分享我的感动

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
回头才发现你不在
留下我迂回的徘徊
我不是一定要你回来
只是当又把回忆翻开
除了你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
疲惫的身影不是我
不是你想看见的我
我不是一定要你回来
只是当独自走入人海
除了你之外的依赖
还有谁能教我勇敢

除了你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱

听着这首歌
心
沉重了
有种孤独无助
的感觉
反反复复的在听
眼泪流了
你是否在听这首歌时
也有相同的感受

答应你
不会让你一个人独自看海
我会陪在你身边
直到永远

无题10

2009-08-08T23:00:00.001+08:00

当第一次牵你手时
就决定了不再放手
当第一次拥抱你时
就决定了让你温暖
当第一次~~~
许多的第一次
决定了你我的未来
或许我就那么的懦弱
给不了你任何的承诺
可是我坚信
我对你的爱
胜过一切的诺言
因为诺言可以违背
而我对你的爱
决定不会改变
是你让我懂得去爱
是你让我懂得珍惜
因为一旦错过了
就不能再回头了
你问我为什么爱你
只因我已经爱上了
你让我有种归属感
这决定了与你厮守
你让我停了下来
不会再爱任何人
我的心
我的脑
全都是你
你会说我笨
你会说我傻
你会说不值得
可是
我真的爱上了
真的爱上了你~~~

→ps:老婆...我爱你!!!←

无题9

2009-08-05T09:14:00.001+08:00

宁静的夜
孤独的我
躺在床上
却难以入睡

宁静的夜
孤独的我
回忆过去
却无法回去

宁静的夜
孤独的我
望出窗外
却更加寂寞

~沉思~

脑子想着什么
心里装着什么
眼睛看着什么
耳朵听着什么
手里握着什么

~你~

脑子想着你
心里装着你
眼睛看着你
耳朵听着你
手里握着你

原来
在毫无意识之下
你已占据我的一切

迟到~~~

2009-08-05T08:53:00.002+08:00

啊!!!
最近怎么了??
老是迟到...
可能失眠的关系吧...
哈哈..
可是今天却不同..
因为昨晚跟老婆聊到很夜..
一点多了..
还没舍得要去睡..
哈哈..
因为实在太想念她了..
可是..
两个都昏昏沉沉的..
不懂自己在说什么..
那个是我啦..
好像在说梦话似的..
嘻嘻..
不好意思哦老婆..
过后都懂老婆累了..
才舍得挂电..
老婆因为怕我失眠..
才一直陪着我聊..
可是..
挂电过后..
我真的陪着她睡着了..
很好睡..
结果..
今天两人都迟到了..
而她就赶着上课..
我就没去了..
而打算去找老婆..
嘻嘻..
老婆..等我哦..
今天要接老婆放学!!!
WEE~~~

分手那时~~~

2009-08-02T08:09:00.004+08:00

8月1日

晚上..
不晓得是多少点了..
只知道天已经黑了..
街上的人..
也少了..
我们..
吵架了..
当你说你不要做我的老婆时..
心就象被刀插进去..
很痛很痛..
你说你不需要一段不真心的爱情..
你说她比你更需要我..
你误解了..
那篇文章..
并不是我..
真的不是我..
一直以来..
我就只真心对你..
是真的..
或许那天..
我真的说了很多话气你..
伤害了你..
真的对不起..
那时候..
真的泪流满脸..
打电给你..
你也不接..
生气我..
是的..
应该的..
可是..
我并不会放手..
因为我是真心爱着你一个..
就只有你一个..
最后..
你还是原谅了我..
很想说声..
→老婆..谢谢你..我爱你←

*ps:thx my yuki hengdai!!!u reali help me a lot during tat time...thx a lot^^

无题8

2009-08-01T14:45:00.004+08:00

闭上眼睛
盖着眼眶里
打滚的眼泪
不敢睁开
害怕流泪...
害怕被发现..

寂寞
来了
缠绕着我
围绕着我
出走
漫无目标的走着
走着走着
想要远离寂寞
但
寂寞
还是跟上了我
怎样也摆脱不了......

想什么想什么??!!!

2009-07-30T00:46:00.002+08:00

心情..
好像有些沉闷..
这到底怎么啦..
自己也不懂自己在想什么..
好像..
很多事情把我压着..
无法释放..
现在竟然睡不着..
开着电脑..
写着部落格..
在想什么想什么想什么...
啊!!!
就快崩溃了...
压力压力压力..
读书读书读书..
生活中的每件事情..
压得我喘不过气..
何时才能放开这一切..
心神恍惚..
烫衣时..
不懂在想着什么..
烫伤了自己!!
痛~~~
真的....在想什么啊???

无题7

2009-07-28T15:29:00.002+08:00

这样的天
并不配我的心情
晴朗的天
却配上我的忧愁
一点也不协调
彩虹
增添天空的色彩
这偏偏也增加了我的惆怅
望着天
却没有想哭的感觉
因为强忍着
假装坚强
其实我并不那么坚强
偷偷的
在心里流着泪
脸上
却挂着虚假的笑容
有谁懂得
心里深处的痛楚

惊险惊险!!!

2009-07-27T17:30:00.001+08:00

星期一..
又是读书天了..
一早就驾着车子准备上学去..
旁边就坐着我弟弟咯..
就在半路时..
弟弟收到朋友的信息..
说他的摩多爆胎了..
要我们弯过去载他上学..
由于有点迟了..
所以车速有点快..

载了弟弟的朋友之后..
就赶着去学校..
可是车速并没那么快了..
途中..
差点发生了意外!!!
我的天啊......
差点就被车撞!!
突然就摆过来我的路..
车尾就差点朝我的方向扫来..
很险很险!!
还好他摆回去他的路..
给他吓得手脚发软..
差点就死了......
拜托啦..
驾车小心点..
不然会搞出人命啦!!!

无题6

2009-07-27T17:22:00.001+08:00

再次的
你伤害了我
毫无保留的伤害
刺进我的心
受伤了
需要多长的时间
才能把你忘了
为什么你要再次出现
为什么会来我的身边
我以为我早已放下
可是我却无法忘怀
再次的接受
却成了伤害
原来早已失去的
就不可能再回来
别说离开之后才懂我的好
这一切都是你的谎言
我只是你的代替品
在你受伤时才想起的代替品
告诉自己
不会再被你伤害
因为不想再成为
你的代替品.......

无题5

2009-07-27T17:19:00.000+08:00

属于嘉美的作品

没有你在身边
我过得很好
你在想着我
当我在想你时
你在担心我
当我没有想你时
我假装
我以为
我过得很好

你在我身边时
我总会忧伤
你在想着她
当我看着你时
你在担心她
当我悲伤时
我的假装
我的以为

你狠狠地毁灭了......

无题4

2009-07-26T10:01:00.002+08:00

雨
狠狠地下起雨了
雨
带来了一份寂寞
雨
不能打断我对你的思念
雨
只让我对你更加的想念
更加想念你的拥抱
更加想念你的温暖

我闭上了眼
听着窗外的雨声
我仿佛听见
你在呼唤我的名字
我沉思
脑海里寻找你的影子
感觉着你的存在
温暖着我的心田

无题3

2009-07-25T22:24:00.001+08:00

每每想起你..
心里不禁酸痛..
每每想起你..
眼泪不禁落下..
每每想起你..
总是无法入睡..

你的影子..
你的声音..
你的笑容..
你的一切..
都深深地烙在我的心..

你的好..
你的美..
你的爱..
我都会好好珍惜..

我不想离开你..
也不想你离开..
只想永远在一起..

属于我们的一天

2009-07-23T19:09:00.002+08:00

很感动很惊险的一天..
只要稍微出错..
就会大祸临头..

很感激你不顾一切的来陪着我..
真的很让我感动..
而我..
竟然在你面前哭了..

一大清早..
你就隐瞒着妈妈..
不搭校车..
去到车站搭车来找我..
7点钟..
来到已经是9点钟了..
早餐时间..
就载着你去吃早餐噜..

这个早餐还吃蛮久的..
哈哈..
一个小时..
原因是我吃得慢..
还吃得肮脏脏..
你也笑我了..

过后就带你回家家咯..
可是..
你有点怕怕..
结果我们就在家家附近兜兜圈..
因为家家附近都是马来人居住..
所以都有很多猫猫..
而你..
看到了那些猫..
眼睛发亮了..
你超爱猫的哦..
嘻嘻..
还说那些猫很美..
有机会我会捉一只给你的..
我在心里说..

载你回了家家..
你有些害怕..
怕我的外公..
其实也没什么的..
叫了一声公公..
就上楼去了..

没多久..
你就要回了..
一起的时间还真短..
很舍不得..
可是还是送你回家..
为了不让妈妈怀疑..
一起的时间..
总是过得很快..
不知不觉就到了你家..
那时候..
妈妈不在家..
你送了我一瓶的相思豆..
是你一粒一粒的捡..
好感动..
之后我也去了你家吃午餐噜..
嘻嘻..
你一口一口的喂着我..
很幸福..
真的很幸福...

当午餐吃完没多久..
妈妈回来了!!!!
而我就冲去后门..
而你就帮我到前门拿鞋..
好险哦..
还好没让妈妈发现我..
真的捏了一把冷汗..
一个人..
孤孤单单开着车子回.....

改变。迷失

2009-07-23T17:49:00.002+08:00

再也不像以前那个模样..
不像以前般疯狂..
不像以前般开朗..
不像以前般健谈..
不像以前般幽默..
一切都随着时间而改变..
是真的么??

以前的我去了哪里..
想找回来..
可以吗??
很怀念那个我..
笑容永远都是真的..
从心里笑出来的我..
而不是现在这个..
伪装的我......

无题2

2009-07-22T17:30:00.002+08:00

只想一直陪着你
只想一直守护你
只想一直疼着你
只想一直牵着你

或许我就是那么没用
或许我就是那么懦弱
或许我就是那么愚昧
或许我就是那么粗心

能为你做得并不多
你却不要我的付出
我能做的
只有默默地守候
守候着你
不让你受到伤害

我承认
我不明白你
我承认
我让你辛苦
我承认
这一切都是我的错

你说的
我爱你是我傻
那我宁愿一直傻下去
你说的
我爱你是我笨
那我宁愿一直笨下去
你说的
我爱你是我疯
那我宁愿一直疯下去

为了爱你
我愿意付出所有
为了爱你
我什么也无所谓
只想对你说
【我爱你】

想念你的那颗心..

2009-07-21T23:46:00.002+08:00

又想起你了..
你的模样..
总会在我脑海里浮现..
一次又一次..
一次又一次..

无时无刻都想你..
想起你的脸..
想起你的笑..
想起你的美..
想起你的好..

真的很想你..
很久没见到你了..
怀念..
怀念拥抱的感觉..
怀念亲吻的感觉..
怀念你的味道..
怀念你的一切..

【真的很想你】

→亲爱的..我爱你←

无题...

2009-07-21T15:42:00.001+08:00

突然累了..
突然哭了..
怎么都那么突然..
为什么会累..
为什么会哭..
为什么就这样了..

心累了..
心痛了..
心哭了..
无助..
茫然..
悲哀..
谁能够了解..
谁能够清楚..
这是怎样的感觉..

泪流了..
擦干了..
笑容依旧挂在脸上..
有谁会懂..
那笑容是真还是假..
没人懂得..
也分不清楚..

笨蛋...

2009-07-19T16:46:00.001+08:00

感觉..
真的很无奈..
其实..
还有点难受..

为什么??
为什么就这样??
不是好好的吗??
你可以说变就变..
就如天气般..
时晴时阴..

或许我不了解你..
真的不了解..
就这样让你发起脾气来..
或许我也有错..
错的是我..
不曾在乎你的感受..

我真的那么笨吗??
我不知道..
或许我就是这样的一个大笨蛋!!!

又是新的部落格...

2009-07-18T20:48:00.000+08:00

再一次
开多一个部落格
至于
会不会有时间来更新
会不会有半途而废
我不知道

这一次的
会把很多事情都写下来
分享一切